Archive for February, 2006

I Finally Updated!

February 28, 2006

Gosh, time certainly passes quickly whether you’re having fun or not. It used to be when I was a child the time would creep by — allowing you to take in everything – it seemed like the days would never end. I remember thinking as a child how cool it would be just to be tall — not to have to physically look up to grown ups. Now I am one, a grown up that is, and I often times wish I could retreat to my childhood and gaze upward into the loving eyes of a parent and know that things would be ok – they would do the worrying for me and I could go back to a carefree world. I think we all sometimes wish for our childhood back and wish that we could take those little snapshot memories and be absored back into them, making the world melt away.

It doesn’t seem like nearly a week since I posted, but I’ve been so busy with something called life that I just haven’t had the time or energy to come here and write. I’ll spare you all the details, but will share what’s been holding me hostage.

  • The grandfather of a very dear friend of mine passed away last week. She was not solely a granddaughter to him, but rather the person that has cared for him the last several years of his life. Losing him was extremely difficult for her…….and for me, as she is one of my dearest and closests friends.
  • Another friend of mine is dealing with non-hodkins lymphoma and has been undergoing chemotherapy for a couple of months now. She came down with pneumonia last week & her chemo has been suspended until she can recover from pneumonia. She’s a sick girl and I just felt I really needed to be with her.
  • And yet another friend found out she had to have surgery abruptly last Friday morning. She had a hysterectomy a few years ago b/c of severe trouble and they inadvertantly left a portion of one her ovaries intact. That portion has now become consumed with cysts, tumors, and lesions from endometriosis. Her blood work came back abnormal and extremely high in counts indicating ovarian cancer.

Life doesn’t always play nice and it doesn’t always work out like we want it to, but we have to work through it and make the most of what we have. It’s in times like these that I really am aware of what the important things are in life. Love, friendship, happiness just to name a few.

On a more positive note, I did manage to have a few moments at some point in the last few days to totally clean out and reorganize my kitchen. I pulled everything out of cabinets and drawers, went through it all, sorted out what could go to goodwill and what I’d keep — then I reorganized the entire kitchen after spending several hundred dollars at Bed, Bath, and Beyond. I love that store and it surely loves me after all the $$ I spent there. I wish I had taken before and after pictures of it all but my mind wasn’t really on it at the moment — I think it was somewhat theraputic, as crazy as that may sound to some of you.

Let’s see….. what else? I bought myself a new Fossil pocketbook (or purse to some of you) and billfold to match. They’re red — and I love them. I’ve never had a red pocketbook before but I just wanted to be different and a little sassy. People noticed it at work today and several wanted them – it made me feel good about my purchase. If you care to see what the pocketbook looks like, just click here.

Not much else to post about tonight. I’ll leave you with a picture of something that was held up in the email filter at work today. I had to laugh at it and I just know that you guys will be so happy that I’m sharing it with you! The subject line on the email read, “Hedge or Bush”. I immediately thought it was something to do with George W., but alas, it wasn’t and it was hilarious & disgusting at the same time — or so I thought. Enjoy — or go poke your eyes out!


ICK! Certainly makes you wanna make sure your manscape or ladyscape is well groomed huh?

Absence

February 27, 2006

Sorry I haven’t been around or updated in the last few days. Lots going on that have prevented me from being here. I’ll try to post Monday night and get back on schedule….

Hope you all have a great start to your week!

Thought for the Night

February 23, 2006
Don’t knock masturbation,
it’s sex with someone I love.

Image compliments of Google…..

A "Grab Bag" of Thoughts…..

February 21, 2006

Hi everyone,

Let me start by saying to all that read & listened to yesterday’s post – yes, I got the “intense attention” I needed (insert evil grin here). Secondly, the song is a favorite of mine, but it’s not new. I think it actually came out in 1996 — it was on the soundtrack of the movie “City of Angels”. I fell in love with the song and have kept it in my stash ever since. Third, no, the picture isn’t me – although I do wish it were – sorry guys – you can thank google images for it! And lastly, but certainly not least, thank you to those that visited here from Marie’s place. Marie and I (Single Scorpio) do share many of the same life experiences and it really is uncanny how intrinsically entwined we are. I count her as a special friend and a girl that I’m truly inamored with. Thanks lady for the shout out over at your place!

I hope you all have enjoyed the start of your week. I certainly have. I was off today and any week that I have one less day to work is always the start of a GREAT week. Today was laid back and relaxing — a few drinks during the lunchtime hour and a little galavanting around with friends this afternoon was exactly what I needed. I’m so accustomed to being online and with my computer all day (b/c it’s the nature of my work as well as a hobby) that it really was nice to spend the entire day away from it. I didn’t touch my laptop until around 5:30 tonight and if you know anything about me you’ll agree that was an incredible feat. I’m actually pretty proud about that. There are days where if I’m away for 15 minutes I feel disconnected — yeah, I know I’m addicted, but isn’t the first step acknowledgment? :) I shudder at that actually, but relish in the fact that I know I’m not alone. So there!

I downloaded a few tunes last night for my nano & I think I’m going to sign off of here and pop those little buds in my ears to drift off to dreamland. I think I thought that having some new tunes to listen to would necessitate me into going to bed earlier. Not so apparently —it’s approaching the 1:30am mark and yet, I’m still here. I really must do something about my late night addiction – or rather my “go to bed aversion”. Nevertheless, I’m out of here and I’m off to listen to some great music!

Hope tomorrow finds you all happy and treats you well!!!

Needing Attention…..

February 20, 2006

I’m feeling incredibly erotic and needing some intense attention tonight/ While listening to some music on my nano this happened to play…… Yeah, I feel loved…..

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“Feelin’ Love” by Paula Cole

Love, love

You make me feel like a sticky pistil
leaning into a stamen
You make me feel like a mister sunshine
Himself
You make me feel like splendor in the grass
While we’re rollin’
Damn skippy baby
You make me feel like the amazon’s runnin’ between
my thighs

CHORUS:
You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love, love
You make me feel love, love, love, love, love
love, love, love, love

You make me feel like a candy apple
Red and horny
You make me feel like I wanna be a dumb blonde
In a centerfold, the girl next door
And I would open the door and
I’d be all wet
With my tits soaking through this tiny felt t-shirt
That I’m wearing
And you would open the door and tie
Me up to the bed

Chorus

Lover, but I don’t know who I am
Am I (?)
Am I hot inside
What would I place with your hot conscious
Oh baby babe babe babe
I will be your death, the moonlight
Take your time

You make me feel (3 times)
You make me feel loved

Tomorrow

February 18, 2006

Chasing Tomorrow
by Bob Shank

veiled with hopes and dreams
visions of butterflies and streams
expansive mountains block the way
along with pain called yesterday

yet I shall climb this endless trail
never stopping, afraid to fail
illusions of progress is what I see
climbing downhill hath been my reality

never one to accept the truth
I struggle on in search of proof
over the horizon is where it lies
mirages of tomorrow within my eyes

renewed vigor quickens my pace
against the clock I begin to race
yesterday was passed along the way
and yet tomorrow is still today……

******

I almost captured tomorrow and all it’s beauty, then I woke up and realized, tomorrow never really comes…..

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!!

February 14, 2006

(There’s an assignment at the bottom so keep reading!)

I’ve started this V Day post 3 or 4 times only to erase it all and start completely over. I’m so mixed up and not really sure what I want to say. Part of me wants to be all sappy and girlie. Then there’s the other part of me that emphatically says “No, don’t be like that” and so I’m in this wishy washy not sure how I really feel right now state and for that I’m sorry if this all seems amuck.

Valentine’s Day can be a difficult day for people who are alone in the world and who so longingly want to be half of an awesome duo. It presents a day that can be awkward and unpleasant. While it’s a time to celebrate love, it’s also a day that separates those that have from those that have not, making a vividly clear distinction between the two. I never know how I’m going to feel when I awake on Valentine’s Day – whether I’m going to be happy go lucky and carefree or if I’m going to be down in the dumps of despair until midnight rolls around and another day begins.

I want to be that happy, on top of the world girl, but sometimes, no matter how much you want something, you just can’t force it and invariably you just have to cover it the best you can and move on. I’m one of those people that builds extremely high walls around themselves and is very guarded about who I let in to see the real me, the raw, all exposed, unfiltered, unfettered me. I don’t like to be vulnerable and I don’t like for people to see me hurt. It’s part of my persona to be seen as that strong type. But inside, I’m not. Sure, professionally, financially, I am a provider and can fend for myself, but as much as I am independent in all those aspects, I cannot solely provide myself with the love & affection that another human being can give me.

For those of you that have found that special someone to share yourselves with, I’m envious and you are truly blessed. On this Valentine’s Day be sure to celebrate it and tell those around you just how much they mean to you. And to others near you that seem a bit aloof on this day, extend to them some kind words and heartfelt expressions. Whether they admit it or not, they will be thankful and appreciate that you took note and made an effort to make them feel special.

Alternatively, for those of you reading this, in the same boat as I, Happy Valentine’s Day to you…..to us….. Delight in knowing that you are not alone and that Valentine’s Day is not solely for lovers, but it’s also a day to let those dear to you –family & friends alike – know that they are special and cherished.

In many ways, I consider you all reading this a part of my extended circle of friends and am thankful for your companionship, friendship, laughter, devotion, empathy and many other qualities that you all uniquely possess. I have found a kinship in you that is rewarding – so thank you for sharing yourselves with me.

Now – I’m done being all Valentine Day “Sappyish” and sincere – let’s have a bit of cheer and fun before you go off to your next read……leave a comment today, boast my self esteem and inflate my ego – tell me how much you like/love/hate/envy, etc me and tell me if you were MY VALENTINE what you would do to make this day a special day for me! Go on, it won’t hurt you, and don’t be afraid, it’s not like I’m going to hunt you all down and make you make it all come true! And I want girls and boys alike to play! Ok…skedaddle and get to commenting! I’m awaiting my Valentine’s Day surprises from you! And don’t worry, I won’t tell your significant other that you cheated with me!

Just Stuff

February 13, 2006

Well well. What do you know? I finally got the template like I want it in both browswers. When I set out to spruce up the place yesterday I didn’t think it was going to take as much tweaking as I’ve had to spend with it. Had I known, you may have still been looking at the old look. All’s well now though and hopefully none of you will have any trouble with the page. If you do, let me know and I’ll try to get things resolved. Now…enough with template talk.

I’ve had a pretty good weekend — haven’t really ventured outside the house. I know that probably sounds pretty boring but with everything I’ve had going on lately coupled with the fact that I’ve been sick for well over a week now, I really just needed the down time.

Friday night I watched the sadest excuse for an opening ceremony to the Olympics that I’ve ever seen. What gives? Did anyone else see it? The best part was the way they lit the torch. The rest of it was miserably painful to watch but I kept convincing myself that something better was to come. Wrong.

The Olympics themselves have been pretty good. I’ve seen (heard) pretty much everything they’ve shown on TV – it’s convenient like that when you’re hanging out in the house for hours upon hours). I’m loving the snowboarding and skiing thus far. The Flying Tomato (Shaun White) won the halfpipe & Kass won the Silver – I’ll never understand how they do that stuff — it amazes me. I’d probably break half the bones in my body if I tried it — it looks fun though. I have to say that if given the opportunity I’d like to think I’d give it a go. Afterall, you only live once right?

I was hoping that Bode Miller would bring home the gold in downhill skiing but alas that wasn’t to be. He’s still HOT even if he did lose. I’d still lick his wounds….if he had any that is. And he still has other events he can medal in so it’s not a total loss.

And what about Michelle Kwan? I’m glad she stepped up and decided to drop out of the figure skating event. Realistically she was not physically up to the challenge and while I can only imagine how difficult it was for her to step down I think it shows her maturity, grace, and unselfishness. While closing the door on her gold medal hopes she opened the door for another and doing that when you want something so terribly bad says a lot about her character. Great job Michelle — we wish you well.

And one last olympian….Chad Hedrick….2006 Olympic Gold speed skater…. Damn… I don’t think there’s anything more I need to say. Only that he’s cocky and has a certain bad boy image like Bode in a way…. I have to say, I like the bad boy image – always have……..

I’m pretty sure you guys are bored with this post by now, but what else did you expect from someone who’s been in the house all weekend? I’ll shut up rambling now and tell you all that I hope you have a wonderful week. That’s it. Seeya folks!

OK People

February 12, 2006

Alright folks — I hear you! When I changed my template yesterday I only tested it in Internet Explorer. Stupid me – I know, I should have tested it in Firefox too. I didn’t. Sorry. While everything isn’t like I ultimately want it, I have been working on the template so that those of you that use Firefox can actually view my blog while I work to resolve the rest of the issues. At least now you can read it. For those using Internet Explorer, the template worked great for you yesterday, but as I’ve worked through the Firefox issues I’ve had to change a few minor things which ultimately makes the IE page look a little funny too. Anyway, I’m working on it – just bear with me. I’ll have it all straightened out soon and you all should be able to view the page properly no matter which browser you use.

Ok…back to template land – I shall see you people later!

WAIT!

February 12, 2006

You’re not at the wrong blog, I just updated my template! I was getting a little bored with the plain white backdrop so I decided to change things up a bit around here. I hope you like the new digs! The picture in my banner is of The Battary in Charleston, South Carolina. I took that picture a while back while strolling down the walk and have always thought it was beautiful. It seemed like the perfect banner to use for a Southen Sweetheart….. me! The rest of the design is just a little something I whipped up between naps today.

Nothing much going on and still feeling a little under the weather so this is short and sweet.

Hope you’re all having a great weekend and if I’m up to it, I’ll be back later to post again….