Because Jelly Wants Me To

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Interesting & Fun Meme

Saw this on Ed & Sue’s blog and thought it would be fun to answer & post here….. Thanks Ed, hope you don’t mind!

X = have done

(x) snuck out of the house — Used to do this all the time when I was in high school — I never got caught!
( ) gotten lost in your city
( ) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries — Mexico
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pyjamas – Does running out to the car early in the morning count?
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino — I love Vegas and love the casinos… black jack and craps are my favorite
( ) been skydiving – never been but would love to!
(x) skinny dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) seen a therapist
(x) done the splits – I was a cheerleader for 6 years so splits were a norm!
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
( ) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) crashed into a friend’s car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
( ) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated Mardi-Gras in new Orleans
( ) been to Europe — never been but would love to!
(x) slept with a co-worker — (insert evil grin here — haha — was TERRIFIC!)
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) seen someone die — my dad, my grandmother
(x) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(x) driven over 400 miles in one day — many times – road trips are fun!
(x) been to US– well, I live here!
(x) been to Mexico
( ) been to India
(x) been on a plane — many times and love it!
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar — never in a bar but occasionally have after coming home from one
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten sushi
(x) been skiing/snowboarding — I wasn’t any good at either of these but it was fun trying!
(x) met someone in person from the internet
(x) lost a child
(x) gone to college/university
(x) graduated college/university
(x) fired a gun
( ) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers — most recently, after a fall off a deck! Ouch!
( ) been intimate with someone of the same gender

Just a bit of insight….

Thought I’d post some insight on the name of my blog —- always loved Frank Sinatra songs and “My Way” has always been a favorite…..

Frank Sinatra Lyrics
My Way Lyrics
(P. Anka, J. Revaux, G. Thibault, C. Frankois)
[Recorded December 30, 1968, Hollywod]

And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I traveled each and ev’ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Regrets, I’ve had a few
But then again, too few to mention
I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption
I planned each charted course, each careful step along the byway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I’m sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew
But through it all, when there was doubt
I ate it up and spit it out
I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way

I’ve loved, I’ve laughed and cried
I’ve had my fill, my share of losing
And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing
To think I did all that
And may I say, not in a shy way,
“Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way”
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught
To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels
The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

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Yep, still a favorite!

Shagging

This will be a short post — I’m so tired and definitely need my beauty sleep. Been up way too late the last few weeks. Anyway, thought I’d report that I went to a shag lesson tonight — and no, not THAT kind of shag lesson — I KNOW HOW TO DO THAT HAHAHA — this was dance lessons. For those that don’t know, shagging is a southern dance so I can’t live in the south and NOT KNOW HOW TO SHAG! It was actually a fun class and I enjoyed it immensely. Not only was the dancing great but I got to meet a lot of new people and dance with a lot of great guys! haha — jk. There were about 8 girls and 4 guys in the class so obviously we had to share the men – they certainly got a work out! If you don’t know how to shag, you should learn – it’s a fun dance………. Now, off to dreamland where I will count my way to sleep going thru all the steps in my head!

Choices

We all have choices and decisions to make thru the course of a day, week, month, year, etc — thousands of them. We can’t always be right everytime about everything — (how shortsided it would be to think we were) no matter how much thought and effort is put into them. What I might consider as the right decision today may prove to be the wrong decision tomorrow — or I may change my mind on what the “right” decision is.

Choices/Decisions are made based on facts and feelings. Facts are concrete, usually unchanging, and feelings are perceptions based on emotions.

Do I act based on fact or feeling? Do YOU act based on fact or feelings? And if feelings – whose? Your own or someone elses? For me, it depends. At work, with facts….. in my personal life, with emotions — I’m never always right but I get satisfaction out of knowing that I MADE THE DECISION – I made it based on what I knew and felt at the time. I can’t fault myself (or anyone else for that matter) with the decisions I make (or they make). They’re mine and while I may make choices that others don’t agree with or don’t understand I know that I am living MY life and I will reap the rewards/consequences of them. I take responsibility for them. I refuse to succomb to what others think I should do/act/feel and I refuse to regret the choices I’ve made. It is thru those choices that we as humans form who we are, what we’re about, what motivates us, what drives us, what character traits we build or what character flaws we develop. No, I’m not saying I’m completely happy with who I am or the character flaws I’ve developed — what I am saying is that I can not live life with regrets ——– I am who I am. I’ll learn from my mistakes or prosper in my choices. …..I’d rather take a chance on not doing what people said than regret not doing what my heart led me to do and wondering what would/could have been IF…… and in all honesty, you’re not the judge – and the one who is can forgive me.

Having said that, if I’ve offended or hurt anyone in the process — along lifes journey, or in the world of cyberspace – whether with this post or prior ones, etc I’m sorry. My words were not intended to cause you harm/hurt/disappointment, etc —- It’s only because you interpret them in such a way that you end up hurting yourself unintentionally — that’s not a result of anything I’ve said or done – but rather a deeper, inward hurt or disappointment unrelated to me. I hope you find peace within yourself and prosper in your own choices.

Fathers Day

wow… it’s here again… Father’s Day. This is such a hard day for me. My father passed away almost 4 years ago and everytime this day comes around it’s a difficult one for me to get through. My dad was the most special man in my life — he was always there for me, always loved me unconditionally, always wanted me to have the things my heart desired. I was the apple of his eye and he always made sure I knew it. I miss him dearly – as would anyone that’s lost a parent – and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about him. I’d do anything to have him back….ANYTHING. Days like today are tough – my mind races down memory lane…..sitting on his lap as a child letting me “help him drive” — he’d say – “you steer the car and I’ll press the pedals” – haha, riding down the sidewalk on my bike with him running beside me holding the seat, jumping on the trampoline with him and learning how to turn flips, helping him work in the yard – he finally let me cut the grass!! (I loved it – I’d practice driving as if it were a car!) Getting my first dog, my first car…… Every morning before I’d leave to go to school (HS) he’d slip a note under my bedroom door that said “I Love You – Daddy” and with it was always paperclipped $10. When he’d hug me he’d always slip me some money and whisper in my ear “shhhh – don’t tell your mother” – haha – I know she knew anyway. I remember when I moved out — he didn’t want me to leave – he didn’t speak to me for nearly a week. Daddy was from the “old school” – He didn’t want me to move out until I was getting married — he always said it was tough to make it on your own, that he wanted someone to take care of me. I think he realized pretty soon though that he taught me how to take care of myself. I’m a pretty independent lady and its because of him that I can stand on my own two feet. He saw me buy my first house and even though I know he was proud of me I also know that he wanted me to find “him”. He wanted me to find my husband – to find someone to spend my life with. He didn’t want me to be alone in this big old world. He wanted to walk me down the aisle and give me away and I remember when he was lying there – taking his last breaths – I was being so selfish – I knew he’d never get to. I knew he would never be there to give me away – he’d never be there to meet the man of my dreams, he’d never see my children and experience being a grandfather to them. He’d never get to see so many things I wanted him to see or experience with me. I miss him dearly and I love him like only a daughter and daddy would know. He was the best – he was/is my hero, he was/is my role model, my inspiration — he always told me I could be and do anything and I will forever try to be everything he taught me to be. He’s my personal Angel in Heaven now and If I turn out to be half the person he was I will be one fantastically terrific gal…… Here’s to you dad – I miss you & I love you! Happy Father’s Day!

Happy, Really Really Happy

What can I say? I am so excited about this time in my life! C & I had a really long talk last night and I learned that C is taking the step…… getting out of the situation he’s in — yes, you know what I’m talking about. C & the other half sat down and talked this week and made the decision to call it quits on the marriage. Neither of them have been happy for a LONG time and they both deserve to be. While I know that it’s not “ethically or morally” “right” for me to be happy about this, I have to admit that I am. It’s the right decision — I know it — I’ve known it for a LONG time.

One of the reasons I started this blog was to be able to be completely me – without fear of retribution, without fear of rejection, without judgment from my peers. This is the place I wanted to come to say everything I’ve wanted to say but didn’t have anyone to say it to. This is my place to let my guard down and ‘talk’, whether anyone listens is beside the point. It’s just important for me to be able to “speak” my feelings – somewhere – anywhere – as long as it’s not kept bottled up inside.

For several years now I’ve been involved in something I know is morally wrong, and I understand the judgment that would be cast on me if my secret – our secret – became known. I’m not proud of the fact that I’ve gone outside the lines of what is considered “right” – and I know that anyone who hasn’t been in my shoes can not possibly understand it — I never did until I put those figurative shoes on and took the first steps down this path. I’ve never been able to tell anyone how happy I am, how in love I am, how incredible he is, how he makes me feel, how the littliest things he does make me mush inside. I can’t even begin to describe it here……….but now I’m saying it…. I love him – everything about him — there – it’s out – I said it! (insert sigh of relief here)!!!!

The next few weeks and months will be trying times. I know things won’t be easy and I know that it could (probably will) get extremely difficult but that’s ok….. sometimes you have to walk thru the valley to get to see the mountain. I’m prepared to take that journey.

…………….and as for those who do not understand, or those that may want to condemn me – it’s ok. I understand why you may feel the way you do — I’ve been on your side of the fence — however, you haven’t been on mine and until you’ve walked in my shoes it is impossible for you to even attempt to understand……………………

What’s your Personality Type?

So… I’ve been playing around on the net and I’ve seen/read about alot of people taking these Personality Type tests. I had never seen the test but had read the results for some people and was curious as to what type I would turn out to be if I took the test. Lucky me! I happened upon a link to it and took it and it appears to be pretty accurate (as far as how I view myself anyway). Here are my results – pretty cool huh? Take the test for yourself — the link is near the bottom of this post… Enjoy!

Your #1 Match: ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader – with confidence and strength that inspires others.Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise.Sometimes you aren’t the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow.You are not easily intimidated – and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

Your #2 Match: ESTJ

The Guardian You’re a natural leader and quick, logical decision maker.Goals are important in your life, and you take many steps to acheive them.You enjoy interacting with others, mostly through work related activities.Your high energy level means you are great at getting things done! You would make a great teacher, judge, or police detective.

Your #3 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much – and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations … where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression.You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything.Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off.You’re very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #5 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups – whether you’re helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

What’s” Your Personality Type?

Christmas Lights!

Ok — let me start this with — WTF!!??!!?? Simple question – why is it that people in the south keep Christmas lights up ALL FREAKIN’ YEAR LONG? What is that? Are they too lazy to take the damn things down? Do they think that plastic icicles drapped on the front of their houses during 100+ degree weather in dead summer is attractive? Do they think Santa will visit more often b/c they celebrate Christmas all year long? What is it? I don’t understand. It baffles me that no matter what street I drive down I always see these icicles hanging on something — a house, a shed, a doghouse!! People PA-lease!!!!! Take the damn decorations down! Enough already! Please tell me that this happens in some place other than the south – I don’t want to think that we’re giving people yet another reason to stereotype all southerners as being lazy!!!

NOT GUILTY!

….or so they say…… I have to admit that I was one of those people hovering over a radio today at the office waiting to hear the verdict in the Michael Jackson case. Can’t believe I did that b/c the whole time this trial has been going on I have been so totally uninterested in the whole thing. Enough already with this case. I’m sick of it and yet what am I doing — I’m sitting here at 11:30 at night writing about it! I didn’t watch this “trial of the decade” like I did the OJ case of the last decade so therefore I don’t have all the facts of the case, but I’d have to say that based on what they have shared in the media and what I’ve been able to ascertain, I think the jury made the right decision. Sure – Jackson is a fruit cake — he does some really strange stuff – he’s made some really bad decisions – he’s not the normal guy, but given that, I still don’t think they had enough against him to convict him “beyond reasonable doubt”. There were too many question marks in this case to convict him. Now, having said that, I hope that Jackson will have a revelation and wake up to realize that the things he thinks have been “normal” all these years AREN’T! Hopefully he’ll change his ways and stop putting himself in situations that lend people to think he’s such a fruit. No, you may not agree, you may have thought he should have been convicted but you nor I were on the jury so we just have to accept it and move on. Jacko’s not in Jail-o….case closed.